I've always been known to have a feable hart. Of that I'm sure, my closest friends always told me to go steady with just one girl, focus all my attention and thoughts on her.
Finally years after I managed to do so. Whether I'm walking the best path or not is not for me to say but for God and God alone.
Last night I had a dream though. They were both at my side, I didn't notice that, I was just sitting enjoying the view of a sun that was setting down, like a tired vagabond settling for a comfortable space.
At my right was my present, holding my hand, making plans, absorbing my presence. At my left was my impossible looking at me, I swear I could feel her musing trying to find out what was inside me. Her look could melt even the toughest component, ever since I met her I fell in love with that look, so impossible, so far, so not for me...
Suddenly my left whispers softly at me "I've been loving you for so long" and carefully kisses my cheek. I can't move, I'm frozen from the outside but from the inside feelings erupt, my heart is wrapped in an ecstasy my head has never known. Joy moves from my hair to my toes lighting all my senses, my fingertips sharpen, my eyes glow. But then awareness seizes me with the arms of a jealous lover "What about your right?" "She will see you and she will not like what she sees" "She has given all her life to you ! " I do not know what to do. My left goes away taking away my heart with a promise of return as soon as we meet again.
I need to leave, darkness is lurking everywhere, I do not want to be lost in this rapture anymore. I need an advice, I need someone to hear me out. I need direction. What am I to do now?. Fortunately or unfortunately it was all a dream. But as soon as I woke up I knew that my right and my left are real. I know how my right feels for me. But what about my left? What if ? What if? I'm so lost God...
